This is the End

The day that I had looked forward to since the day I pulled into Briercrest finally arrived. I am home. Home for the long run..at least as far as I know. And I have completely the chapters of my life in a Christian school.

This stage of life is so weird. So full of terrifying beginnings followed by either heartbreaking endings or endings that took far too long to arrive. And it's all so unknown.

I don't really have anything good to say about my year. Apart from the fact that I must have grown. I must have grown in many ways that I do not even realize yet because it was so challenging. It was so big and lonely and unfamiliar. There were some good memories and some great laughs, but I can't even say that I was tremendously sad to say goodbye to anyone. There was never that level of bonding there in the first place. I wish a lot of things were different. But there must have been a purpose for the hall that I lived in and the people I met. Hopefully. In a lot of ways, honestly, I am bitter about my year. But once I find time to relax, breathe, and process fully, that may change.

I loved the classes. They were the best part of the year. I loved learning, I loved writing papers, I loved writing exams. Some classes were pointless and unbearable at times, but academically, I loved every minute of it.

I am SOO ready for summer. It doesn't feel like 'summer holidays'. It is such a novelty that I am done school in April that it hasn't even hit me yet. I have so many fun things planned. Many movies to watch and books to read. So you think you can dance!! A trip to Phoenix with mom, auntie, and heather. A possible trip to Waskesui with friends from high school. A wedding next weekend. Working...somewhere. Picnics and river walks. Star gazing. Having absolutely noooo homework!!! And before I know it I will be starting U of S. I am very excited.