The first 3-ish hours went by the fastest. I journalled a ton and had a few revelations -- basically having to do with being reminded that it is more than okay to question. Because when we question, we grow. And it's good to be reminded that God is still God no matter where we are at or how we are feeling. I'm such a 'feeling' oriented person and it drives me crazy sometimes!
But anyway. After that I went outside for a walk for like an hour and then came back in and read more of the Bible - journaling about each passage. After this is when I started to go stir crazy. It was about 4:00 and I realized I had to continue like this, completely secluded and not being allowed to do anything but pray, until I went to sleep. It was so challenging. But, somehow the time went by and I was climbing into bed.
I woke up extremely happy that I was once again free to eat food and to socialize with people. But then I felt guilty for feeling like I needed to be free from spending time with God. But then I decided that being in seclusion yesterday was supposed to be challenging - there would be little point to the assignment if it wasn't. And I was in no way wanting to leave being in God's presence (even if that were possible) it was more wanting to get back to the world outside my dorm room while integrating His presence into every moment of my day. I was just happy to not be restricted anymore to an assignment for a class. I would rather spend time in solitude with God on my own time and be free to do my own things...because I mean, I wasn't even allowed to listen to worship music yesterday. I was so thankful to wake up this morning and be done.
However, I am verrrry excited for the day of prayer on Monday. Especially since it is school-wide.
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