The day that I had looked forward to since the day I pulled into Briercrest finally arrived. I am home. Home for the long run..at least as far as I know. And I have completely the chapters of my life in a Christian school.
This stage of life is so weird. So full of terrifying beginnings followed by either heartbreaking endings or endings that took far too long to arrive. And it's all so unknown.
I don't really have anything good to say about my year. Apart from the fact that I must have grown. I must have grown in many ways that I do not even realize yet because it was so challenging. It was so big and lonely and unfamiliar. There were some good memories and some great laughs, but I can't even say that I was tremendously sad to say goodbye to anyone. There was never that level of bonding there in the first place. I wish a lot of things were different. But there must have been a purpose for the hall that I lived in and the people I met. Hopefully. In a lot of ways, honestly, I am bitter about my year. But once I find time to relax, breathe, and process fully, that may change.
I loved the classes. They were the best part of the year. I loved learning, I loved writing papers, I loved writing exams. Some classes were pointless and unbearable at times, but academically, I loved every minute of it.
I am SOO ready for summer. It doesn't feel like 'summer holidays'. It is such a novelty that I am done school in April that it hasn't even hit me yet. I have so many fun things planned. Many movies to watch and books to read. So you think you can dance!! A trip to Phoenix with mom, auntie, and heather. A possible trip to Waskesui with friends from high school. A wedding next weekend. Working...somewhere. Picnics and river walks. Star gazing. Having absolutely noooo homework!!! And before I know it I will be starting U of S. I am very excited.
Friday, April 24, 2009
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
8 Days
Yup, that's right. One day less than a week until I am all cozy and settled back into my home. I have my last class tomorrow, an exam on Thursday, two exams on Friday, and then I'm actually heading home for the weekend again because I have a worship team practice. On Sunday I have to mosey on back for FOUR days!!!! I have an exam next week Tuesday and then my last one is on Thursday. This could potentially be my last post before I'm done. I've been so crazy with stress and studying lately.
I realized tonight that these last 8 days do not only mean my last 8 days of Bible college ever, but they mean the last 8 days of my life spent in Christian schools. Next fall will be the first time I set foot (apart from two months in kindergarten) into a public school. That is a weird thought.
Well, besides studying and a few sporadic hang outs I've pretty much just been lying around and anxiously anticipating the day I move back home.
I realized tonight that these last 8 days do not only mean my last 8 days of Bible college ever, but they mean the last 8 days of my life spent in Christian schools. Next fall will be the first time I set foot (apart from two months in kindergarten) into a public school. That is a weird thought.
Well, besides studying and a few sporadic hang outs I've pretty much just been lying around and anxiously anticipating the day I move back home.
Friday, April 3, 2009
Dear Spring: Welcome home
I looove this weather! It just makes my heart so happy. I love waking up in the morning to the sound of birds chirping and the sun shining through my window.
I pretty much don't have anything else to write about.
20 days until home.
I'm almost done all my assignments and got a lot of work done on my last paper this morning.
I just got back from a DQ run in Moose Jaw.
Yum.
I really want to go outside and play ball or something - I may do that tomorrow.
Ooh, tonight I think I'm going to snuggle up and watch the Sound of Music.
When I watched the Princess Diaries with Julie Andrews in it, it made me want to watch it. And then last night the Musical Theatre Workshop class put on their year end performance and did scenes from it...so now I really want to watch it.
Umm.
Tomorrow afternoon is our last rehearsal before Sunday night. Oh man, I'm scared.
Yaaaayyyyyy. I'm in a good mood.
I pretty much don't have anything else to write about.
20 days until home.
I'm almost done all my assignments and got a lot of work done on my last paper this morning.
I just got back from a DQ run in Moose Jaw.
Yum.
I really want to go outside and play ball or something - I may do that tomorrow.
Ooh, tonight I think I'm going to snuggle up and watch the Sound of Music.
When I watched the Princess Diaries with Julie Andrews in it, it made me want to watch it. And then last night the Musical Theatre Workshop class put on their year end performance and did scenes from it...so now I really want to watch it.
Umm.
Tomorrow afternoon is our last rehearsal before Sunday night. Oh man, I'm scared.
Yaaaayyyyyy. I'm in a good mood.
Sunday, March 29, 2009
Countdown is On
I cannot believe I have 25 days left of school! This past week went be really slowly, though. And on Wednesday night I started having a really upset stomach, which lasted all throughout Thursday and into Friday morning - until I went to the Dr. and got ant-acid pills. They seem to be working, because I have felt fine since then. I really think it was yet another side effect of stress and anxiety. I just can't wait to be home.
I went to the Serve conference that we held here this weekend and got to hear Scot McKnight at all the main sessions. It was pretty good - he is a great speaker. The seminars were also pretty good. Well, I enjoyed the last two I went to on worship leading, but the first two were all old news.
I hope this next week goes by more quickly. It should, because tomorrow I'm actually heading home for the evening and the day on Tuesday. I have an interview for a paddling pool/program leader job with the city on Tuesday morning and decided I could afford to miss a few classes. We have three last rehearsals before next weekend in preparation for our college singers classical concert, and oh my goodness, it is going to be a gong show. We are so not prepared; I guess we'll just have to pull it together...and pray. :P
I went to the Serve conference that we held here this weekend and got to hear Scot McKnight at all the main sessions. It was pretty good - he is a great speaker. The seminars were also pretty good. Well, I enjoyed the last two I went to on worship leading, but the first two were all old news.
I hope this next week goes by more quickly. It should, because tomorrow I'm actually heading home for the evening and the day on Tuesday. I have an interview for a paddling pool/program leader job with the city on Tuesday morning and decided I could afford to miss a few classes. We have three last rehearsals before next weekend in preparation for our college singers classical concert, and oh my goodness, it is going to be a gong show. We are so not prepared; I guess we'll just have to pull it together...and pray. :P
Friday, March 20, 2009
Update
Oops. It has definitely been a while. It is probably a reflection of my extremely busy month - known at Briercrest (and maybe other universities, I'm not sure) as 'Miracle Month'. I haven't even written about Mexico!
Well, a week ago I was at home packing to leave for Mexico with my family. We got to the island of Cozumel Saturday evening, after a day of flying and a quick stop to the Mall of America to ride the famous ride, ate supper and went to bed. The rest of the week pretty much just consisted of laying by the pool in the beautiful, hot sun and doing a bit of bopping around the island.
One day we went on a Catamaran boat to a reef to snorkel; it was an entire day deal. I got into the water, put my head it, saw the fish swimming really close to me (and all around me...aka ones behind me where I couldn't keep my eye on them) and pretty much freaked out. No way am I going to be in this water with animals that I can pretty much touch. Sick. Gross. Not happening. This is their turf. So I swam right back to the boat, not being able to decide if I felt better about putting my head in the water so I could make sure I wasn't going to touch them or if I should keep my head out of the water where I couldn't see them and thus pretend they weren't there - desperately hoping they weren't getting ready for an attack. I think I chose the latter, or maybe a mixture of both. So, I got back to the boat and got back on, probably looking like a freak as people were still in the process of getting off. There I stayed for the rest of the afternoon, which was nice anyway because the sun was so great. It also worked out okay because I stayed with Teagan so both my parents could snorkel. And that was the famous snorkeling experience that brought me to this conclusion: Snorkeling is a lose-lose situation. If there is nothing to see, it is boring. If there is something to see, I would rather not be in the water with it in the first place.
The next day we went on the Ferry to the mainland and went to another resort of the same company for the day. We had free access because of the all-inclusivness of the resort we were staying in. We did more laying in the sun and just hanging out. Friday (our last day there) my family went to a beach close by to snorkel and swim with dolphins (Teagan actually kissed one!), but I decided A) snorkeling is of the devil, and B) I had waaay too much homework to do, including three papers to write. So I stayed behind, managed to get my whole Theology research paper written in three hours, and spent the rest of my alone time by the pool with a book. Soo nice. Saturday we flew home...back to the deep freeze.
Because of my mass amounts of papers to write, 2 due the Monday I came back to school and 1 due yesterday (Thursday), and my lack of time to do it while in Mexico, I had my first true college experience on Wednesday night. It consisted of me, Amy Keener Soubolsky, starting and finishing writing my major paper for Church Ministry on the day before it was due. Therefore, from when my classes were done until close I was at the library. From 10 pm until midnight I came to the point with friends who were also writing that paper and ate sugar to keep my awake. And from midnight until THREE IN THE MORNING. I was in the lounge finishing up. Yea, that's right. ...I actually kind of enjoyed it.
Anyway, I have just less than 5 weeks of this year left and I am so pumped. I cannot wait to come home for good and enjoy four months of summer. Hmm, I need a job. This weekend I will probably still be doing more work with a bit of actual relaxing time in between, and next week will begin with more time spend bonding with the library and apologizing to my body for sitting and doing work so much.
Well, a week ago I was at home packing to leave for Mexico with my family. We got to the island of Cozumel Saturday evening, after a day of flying and a quick stop to the Mall of America to ride the famous ride, ate supper and went to bed. The rest of the week pretty much just consisted of laying by the pool in the beautiful, hot sun and doing a bit of bopping around the island.
One day we went on a Catamaran boat to a reef to snorkel; it was an entire day deal. I got into the water, put my head it, saw the fish swimming really close to me (and all around me...aka ones behind me where I couldn't keep my eye on them) and pretty much freaked out. No way am I going to be in this water with animals that I can pretty much touch. Sick. Gross. Not happening. This is their turf. So I swam right back to the boat, not being able to decide if I felt better about putting my head in the water so I could make sure I wasn't going to touch them or if I should keep my head out of the water where I couldn't see them and thus pretend they weren't there - desperately hoping they weren't getting ready for an attack. I think I chose the latter, or maybe a mixture of both. So, I got back to the boat and got back on, probably looking like a freak as people were still in the process of getting off. There I stayed for the rest of the afternoon, which was nice anyway because the sun was so great. It also worked out okay because I stayed with Teagan so both my parents could snorkel. And that was the famous snorkeling experience that brought me to this conclusion: Snorkeling is a lose-lose situation. If there is nothing to see, it is boring. If there is something to see, I would rather not be in the water with it in the first place.
The next day we went on the Ferry to the mainland and went to another resort of the same company for the day. We had free access because of the all-inclusivness of the resort we were staying in. We did more laying in the sun and just hanging out. Friday (our last day there) my family went to a beach close by to snorkel and swim with dolphins (Teagan actually kissed one!), but I decided A) snorkeling is of the devil, and B) I had waaay too much homework to do, including three papers to write. So I stayed behind, managed to get my whole Theology research paper written in three hours, and spent the rest of my alone time by the pool with a book. Soo nice. Saturday we flew home...back to the deep freeze.
Because of my mass amounts of papers to write, 2 due the Monday I came back to school and 1 due yesterday (Thursday), and my lack of time to do it while in Mexico, I had my first true college experience on Wednesday night. It consisted of me, Amy Keener Soubolsky, starting and finishing writing my major paper for Church Ministry on the day before it was due. Therefore, from when my classes were done until close I was at the library. From 10 pm until midnight I came to the point with friends who were also writing that paper and ate sugar to keep my awake. And from midnight until THREE IN THE MORNING. I was in the lounge finishing up. Yea, that's right. ...I actually kind of enjoyed it.
Anyway, I have just less than 5 weeks of this year left and I am so pumped. I cannot wait to come home for good and enjoy four months of summer. Hmm, I need a job. This weekend I will probably still be doing more work with a bit of actual relaxing time in between, and next week will begin with more time spend bonding with the library and apologizing to my body for sitting and doing work so much.
Friday, March 6, 2009
Tribute to Brian Regan
This little 'bit' of the comedian who pretty much passes time for us while at school with nothing else to do in Caronport brings back fond memories of elementary school.
I couldn’t spell. I remember my teacher asking me, “Brian what’s the i before e rule?”
“Umm…i before e…always.”
“What are you an idiot Brian?”
“Apparently.”
So she explained it, “No Brian, it’s i before e except after c, and when sounding like ‘ay’ as in neighbour or weigh, and on weekends, and holidays, and all throughout May, and you’ll always be wrong no matter what you say!”
I couldn’t spell. I remember my teacher asking me, “Brian what’s the i before e rule?”
“Umm…i before e…always.”
“What are you an idiot Brian?”
“Apparently.”
So she explained it, “No Brian, it’s i before e except after c, and when sounding like ‘ay’ as in neighbour or weigh, and on weekends, and holidays, and all throughout May, and you’ll always be wrong no matter what you say!”
Wednesday, March 4, 2009
embrace
Still - By Hillsong
Hide me now
Under Your wings
Cover me
within your mighty hand
Hide me now
Under Your wings
Cover me
within your mighty hand
When the oceans rise and thunders roar
I will soar with You above the storm
Father you are King over the flood
I WILL BE STILL AND KNOW YOU ARE GOD
I will soar with You above the storm
Father you are King over the flood
I WILL BE STILL AND KNOW YOU ARE GOD
Find rest my soul
In Christ alone
Know his power
In quietness and trust
In Christ alone
Know his power
In quietness and trust
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